wooow. havent updated in madd amounts. i really did try being consistent but it just didnt happen. well obviously its summer vacay now, so im havin a blast! well kinda. im currently starting my third week of my FIT(fashion institute) summer class. Its a lot of fun, and im meeting tons of new ppl. really wish it was longer, but alas everything must end. i get home at 2 everyday, so besides that im pretty much just chillin with my closest friends. uptown, swimming, movies, ect. nothing tooo crazy obviously in our town. well i kinda have to go see my super x-girlfriend with my sis and her friend so ill be updating more later, PROMISE. wait, who reads this? oh right, me.

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Currently Listening The Hit List By Joan Jett see related

And there's three, count 'em three
Children playing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's biting her lip
As she watches the waves turn white at the tip
And there's Vada
Radiating with joy
And luckily she still can't stand the sight of a boy
And lastly there's Dave
His hair dances in the wind
And he's wondering what love is
And why it has to end

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now

And there's three, count 'em three
Children growing on the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

There's Veronica
She's licking her lips
As she waits for her real, first passionate kiss
And there's Vada
She can't admit her jealousy
Of her sister Veronica, and how she's so pretty (and how she's so pretty)
And lastly there's Dave
Still sitting on the dock
Ponders his life, and he skips his rocks
And he wonders when his father will return
But he's not coming back

And he can't understand
How everyone goes on breathing when true love ends
His mother whispers quietly...
Heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you actually feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love is just a hoax so forget everything that you have heard

(Forget everything)

And there's three, count 'em three
Children missing from the beach
They were eager to learn,
To be taught and to teach

But the sad thing
Is that they never lived passed the age of fifteen
Due to neglect from their mother
Who was bed ridden by her ex-lover, their father
And she didn't even notice, or pay much attention
As the tide came in and swept her three into the ocean
Now all her advice, it seems useless

No, heaven's not a place that you go when you die
It's that moment in life when you touch her and you feel alive
So live for the moment
And take this advice, live by every word
Love's completely real, so forget anything that you have heard
And live for the moment now

One of the saddest songs i've ever heard. I'm incredibly emotional right now. I think it's probably just stress mixed with sadness of my first year of high school ending. Am i the only one who's sentimental about this and not being with the same ppl next year? I know in a few years i'll wish i was back here, with all this stress, since it wont seem like too much by then. I'll want these years back so bad. I'm trying to live for the moment, but those moments are going just too quickly.

Currently Listening One Fell Swoop By Spill Canvas see related

yeah, i reeeeaaaallllyyyy wish i looked like that.

Dear God, please help me out. lately i've been stressed about finishing work on time and my eating habits. People always say that i dont need weight watchers or a diet, but i cant control my eating lately and it just leaves me feeling depressed. My self image is always terrible, and all i want to do is eat without caring and live in sweats. No matter how much i drink to fill myself up, im still hungry. And my work is piling up and im trying my best to finish, but i have so little time. i have to take 5 finals in 2 days which is more than i can take. not to mention insane amounts of makeup work.

i just want it to be summer and have everything over with so i can just not care anymore...